You would think that I would know better by now, but I must confess that I do not. I have never found myself waking up with the consistent passion of desiring to do God’s will. I wish I had the same determination as Jesus. Nothing distracted Him. His main purpose for being here on earth was to fulfill the will of His Father. In John 6:38, He said, “For I have come down from heaven not to do my will but to do the will of him who sent me.”
It was as simple as that for Jesus. Like me, He had a will; but unlike, me Hecame with the absolute passion not to do His will and only to do the will ofGod who sent Him. Isn’t that great?
I wonder what Jesus’ will was. I’ve got to imagine dressing in thebody of a man when you are fully God was not on the top of His will list. Butguess what? God’s will started with Him conforming His Divine Being intoa tiny baby born of a woman. Jesus was created for praise and honor. I bet thatHe did not love all the accusations and judgment that He dealt with from thereligious people who should be the ones teaching others how to praise Him. Idoubt that it was His will to work with twelve such unlikely candidates for changingthe world. Don’t you think He might have thought about using all His DivinePower to approach each individual person Himself rather than trust that powerto such hardheaded individuals? We know for sure by His prayer in the Gardenof Gethsemane that He did not want to take on the sins of the world by dyingon the cross if there was any other way. He prayed about the difference betweenHis will and God’s will: “Going a little farther, he fell with hisface to the ground and prayed, My Father, if it is possible, may this cup betaken from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will” (Matthew 26:39).
I wish that I didn’t get so sidetracked by my will. Most of the time whenI am doing my will and not God’s will, I am not even aware of it. I amnot even paying enough attention to God to know whether I am rebelling againstHis will.
There are other times when I just can’t bear to do God’s will. Thisusually involves injustices or premature deaths that just don’t seem right.I argue with God and rant about the wrongness of such a reality. Whenthe rubber really meets the road is when God’s will is for me to be kindto someone who has mistreated me. I’m at a crossroads when He asks me toforgive (God’s will), and I want to obsess over the wrong committed againstme (my will).
Today I will commit my mind and my will over to God. I’m going to remindmyself what Jesus said. I’m going to try to live my life doing God’swill and not mine. I want to be as passionate and determined as Jesus about doingGod’s will.